Death

It's been a surprise for me,
How thought to write a blog on death came to mind few moments back.
I had started writing on something in morning, but it wasn't working right. There was a desire to make 201st post, something special.
But ...

I no longer wonder - in recent past came across the word, thoughts and reflection around death.
As thought arrived very first thing i observed the word 'eat' within 'death'. How wonderful, isn't it!

DEATH - Divine Eats His creation. annihilation.

No one wants to experience this.
Everyone thinks it happens at the end or something which finishes everything.
How stupid such mind to believe that it happens at the end and finishes everything?
Death is present in very present.
Kaal is another name of death - Samay - Time.
And this constantly nagging thought of do - work - finish up else kaal will come... we keep on hearing but mind sleeps off in myriad of sensory enjoyment.

That's remind me of Kabir and his words.
Expressed in this song by Neeraj Arya's Kabir Cafe in modern version...



All our smartness is nothing in front of him.

So far, I had one equation given by my master, Pt. Sri Ram Sharma Acharya - Life = Time

We all love life, but life moves on, just like Time.
So logically, equation comes down to this
Death = Kaal (0)
kaal = time - (1)
life = time  - (2)
From equation, (0), (1) and (2),
life = death
Is there any difference... !!
A powerful equation to base your life upon.

Once one start working based on the above equation, i guess there will no loner any question.
little word play here too - only one letter differs question and equation. moment something goes 's' silence , 'a' answer arrives. so moment you are that silence, answer of everything... equation and question become same.

Death brings so many association, shivering in spine. So many right and wrong things we keep on doing, without realizing death is going on. It is always there, forever present.

Death - a point to contemplate about.
Every moment, as time passes I die and this false identity wants to stick with that past image. It want to create new, bigger and better pictures in continuation of that identity, without dying. How is that possible? one has to embrace death and than move ahead.
Die every moment and be born every moment. forever child.

Are you ready to die? Right now?
die for being better version of yourself
die for something larger than yourself.
but die, what is kept in living, sticking with already dead. die is new living.
Fearless, Love ... ufff... all of them ... moment I die... I live...
To live truly live in now. die now.

diving in death, emerging in life
Lord of death, wants to bind you in those dead images, wants you to see non-existent images, that which is not existence can not be alive, it needs to be dead too.
Stop this logic mind, and experience it.

look at it...
feel it
dive in
die
live



[read steve jobs quotes on death and dying... and

faquiri

Namaste,

After writing previous post, I had shared it at many places. One such group was satsang group on whatsapp, where one of my brother shared couplets of kabir - faquiri, मन लागे मारो फकीरी में|

Its been one of my favorite among all. The time i read that message i had just finished writing my morning diary after reading prayer from the book 'prayer and meditation' by The Mother. Things were all ready in tune, attuning myself to that vibration was not difficult at that point of time. First line came very quickly and than rest followed with minor changes till its been typed for online. 

After writing  there were some question emerging and one prominent brought out towards end was why I am doing all this? Who am I? rest fall silent. Again in evening thought of typing this as well as gujarati poem written in diary came to mind and again same question. This time to there was no answer,only, Silence. 

At night more beautiful came out and written on FB notes. [putting few parts from there too here.]

Yet when mind will be tuned, in silence, just going on. 

neither there is looking for answer truly,

nor desire for meeting someone,

all is just coming and going

even this thoughts which

some call pure, good, ibadat, prayer, aspiration

comes and goes

So does all those, bad, impure, desire

comes and goes 

Verse my friend shared:

and response

अफ्डा-तफडी मची पड़ी है
लूट फुट कूट चली पड़ी है
जन-जन गाड़ी भर रहा
कंकर पथ्थर काया माला
ना जाने किसका कितना ढेर किया?

हाकन्वरो बेठ देखे तमाशो
मोन मधुर वाणी खड़ी रही

भाव ना धरया, शिर ना धरया
मुख कभी ना अंदर कारया
अनमोल को छोड़ कर
धूल को जोड़ लिया
लोभ-मोह में सब घुमावे
थोभ ज़रा तू, सोच ज़रा तू
चाह ना कर बाँध ना ज़रा  तू 

 आपन को ज़रा खोल ज़रा  तू

खझाना सारा तोल ज़रा  तू 

 मन सजावी तारो, दिल पुराव ज़रा  तू  

नाम शबद धुन चलाव ज़रा  तू  

 ज़रा मन लागे तारो फकीरी में
के मन लागे मारो फकीरी में

and as it moves ahead, from FB note

I am trying to swim but i get drown. 

In those drowning movement 

I don't feel drawn, as 

Not yet able to go deep down 

But always brought some sound 

Sound into word and expressing them into world. 

I feel lot of proud! that is when 

I need to watch and ask again 

Set back and reflect on those sounds

Life goes up & down, 

Still progress is what been aspire 

Till the last respire 

When i mingle into I, 

Than only all efforts been count.  

aaj phir se

What happens when you are doing nothing and you have nothing to do? That to when both hand's of clock are approaching to 12.
With some hope you still drool on FB, midst list of friends available for chat and new post & updates..

and than.. suddenly you find..

you loved this, and think to share...

before that you re-read it..

हमन है इश्क मस्तान, हमन को होशियारी क्या।
रहें आज़ाद या जग में, हमन दुनिया से यारी क्या।।

you also flow in love...  you also become crazy.. and forget everything.
and than this follows

You are not happy yet.
As you have read one more verse.. didn't got the meaning in first skip&scan mode..

you go back.
and read
चाह गयी चिन्ता मिटी, मनुआ बेपरवाह।
जिनको कछु न चाहिए, वो ही शाहनशाह।।

and meaning strikes to you, puts you in awe.
instantly what you follow is

A new level of conversation begins. not between you and person who shared the verse.That is there at outside. Another level of conversation between you and yourself. This time you want to type in hindi, put little bit more effort, get more close to meaning and try to bring forth the deepest aspiration lying beneath. A spark which wants to take hold of everything in life. Yet that spark is not able to succeed, remains still a small. Hope is that it becomes burning brazier, a fire which can never be quenched until the beloved is found and mingled with beloved. Only When fire meets Water.

You ignore call by parent too, your own body too. Don't even bother about asking for permission from rajesh bhai for posting this. All logical thoughts sounds illogical to you.You are awake well past midnight and still continue writing this.

 Still fire in heart is not quenched, await for beloved is still on.
after, again you have to give some excuse to put comma some where
so that line can continue.. life can continue and all this for search continue

दोष देना आसान हे
लांच देना नहीं कठिन
पर प्रभु मिले उन्हें
जो पवित्र प्रेमरस भर देय

 
 Hey, vaibhav
what are you upto?
Nothing! will be your usual answer
I don't know and I have done nothing, will surely follow.
You just be in Now.
Rest and let other Rest wherever they are?
Why you want to awake and set ablaze?
I know you are burning!
So burn alone!
Burn! Burn! Burn!