Spiral movement called Life

Today, i.e. 1st August 2019, marks completion of yet another cycle on spiral movement of life. Every completion brings in new meaning even though everything looks same and old. There are words collected from the experiences turned into memories. I am going to play with them, after introducing it in a circular fashion.

Center:

Somewhere one needs to put a point to start on a circle. First point is obvious a center, an observer of all movements. But journey is not happening at static center but on the circumference. so lets select a point on the circle.

Point ZERO, 0 Degree - 1st August 2016

An Interview date for being part of The Polymath School. What I knew from HR agency was they are looking for a principal and main teacher. A project based learning (PBL) school, which also wants to incorporate values from their spiritual organization. Something I was looking for from many years. To start on combo of PBL and Values in mumbai. I saw an opportunity to collaborate and passion to bring PBL in mumbai. I felt that's what needed and I want it. Really?

Interview was more like a normal conversation with school's founder. Where I like simplicity , good vibe and decent connect. It seemed that opportunity is going to come and all will be well.

some point in clock-wise direction but in real backward tracing:

* I had travel from east of Hyderabad to Mumbai, only for this interview.

* Name of the school where I worked at that point of time 'New Creation Free progress school' (name will be used in word play)

* Salary from a school i had just joined (hardly a month) was about to come but I had no money in pocket. borrowed money from a friend to travel and make things work.

Journey in forward direction, moving towards tangent and diametrically opposite point:

* I got selected as a Home Room Teacher, later became part of Core Academic Team Member

* Seen many coming In and Out of people, lots of learning in process of starting a school.

* Played multiple role as per school name 'The Polymath'. and life moved on with interesting questions and problems. finding their answers and solutions on the way.
* Journey to USA - visiting PBL/EL schools, attending workshop on Play. {things started to turn now}

* Meeting again philosophical and yet too real question - 'What you really want to do?' 'If your purpose in life is A, and you want to start really working on it from 2022, why not now?' 'Aren't life is just moving under varied influences of various forces?'

Music, Movement, Life goes on

@point 180 Degree, 31st july and 1st August 2018

* Now, I don't want to build anymore school or be in so called educational institute which are isolated from Life. Last day of Job (towards end only i felt it like I have job, else it was more collaboration and service!) - left with little bitterness, sad, enthusiasm for new opportunity in front, blank, Hard.

* Fear Still rules overall but deep down something is there which operates from love and trust. Surrender to it.

* Most important point, joining One Month Yoga Teacher training Course at The Yoga Institute, Santacruz, Mumbai. [It seems course supported me to get engage in work, grounded and come out of the shocks life is presenting to you. forever grateful !]

Moving towards 360Degree

* Outer Journey helps you to move ahead in your inner journey too. It brings new insights and clarity to work cheerfully in adverse circumstances and dark world. 

* Connecting with Nature, Retreats at Hyderabad, Bengaluru, Nainital, Haridwar, Delhi, Hyderabad, Puducherry, Bengaluru. 

* Completing Yoga Course and becoming Yoga Instructor for few days and sessions.

* Starting and working for School of Universal Life (S.O.U.L.) and then suddenly taking a Pause.
* Except financially, journey is taking an upward spiral and soon it will affect other areas too.

@point 360Degree, 1st August 2019

* One year from leaving a Job and Joining a Yoga Course. 

* Awaiting for integrating Yoga and Education with daily life.

Word Play and World Play continue:

Now, moving for a New Creation - Sustainable, Eco-Friendly, Free Progress community. No more isolated school, away from real life rather Integrally connected community learning space, full of life. Really Learning in school of universal life.

Not merely a name Polymath, but striving to lead another attempt to be a polymath. Working in many field (growing foods to facilitating learning, communication to cooking) but living a life. 

A new circle will begin, may be a process of nullification, a balancing act to enjoy being at center. Observing passing waves, facing Ripples of past and current events. Creation of many small and big circle within and outside. bursting million bubbles.

Spiral Continues!

yeh safar

क्या तुझे फ़खर हे तेरे मेरे सफ़र पे||
फ़िक्र यह नही,
फ़िक्र नयी यह नही फ़र्क
के हमे या तूमे फ़खर हे या नही?
पर ये फ़र्क कहा से आया हे?
हमसफ़र हम तुम्हारे पुराने.
साथ रहे, पास रहे,
एक आश् मे बुने, 
फिर भी आज क्यू एक नही.

सफ़र चलता रहेगा,
बात बनती रहेगी.
कभी ना कभी,
नफ़रत की सूरत से
इश्क़ की मूरत
निकल आए
यही हौसला लिए.
फखर हे हमे, की हम चल दिए.
जले जिए, ओर शायद
बुजने से पहले
तेरे हो लिए.

Vaibhav, 24-05-2019

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I heard this song yeh safar, from 1942, a love story. few months back. Since then its link was saved on this blog post. Today, while listening to another song. again on travelling ' Jaane kya dhoondhta he'. I remember a simple stirring song back again. Above few lines are written while asking same question again. and searching for the answer.

Charm of march

Passing March has again passed an order to March.

Bag has been brought, enthusiasm and courage has been put
announcement and declaration will be done.
Newer plains will be charted, undiscovered path will meet..
all begins again with mixed feelings and thoughts, under peace and pace.

Destination: Here & Now
Purpose: Awareness, to know self and find The Divine.
Logistics: whatever, economical preferred
Accommodation: Any place where Mother's presence is felt, making it homely

-
Vaibhav
31-03-2016
Another journey had began on last day of March 2016.
One which is so ingrained in life.

આ જરા સાંભળ

આ જરા સાંભળ, આહ તેનો સ્વર
કેવા તાલમાં, આ તરંગ ઉઠતી.
















આ જરા જોને, આહ તેનું રૂપ
કેવા રંગમાં, આ તરંગ ઉઠતી.

ઉઠતો, પડતો, ડૂબતો, પલાળતો
સદા છલકાતો, દોટ લગાવતો
આ ભાવ તેનો, પ્રેમ ભર્યો
જયારે અડતો મુજને
અનુપમ અનુભવના શાંત તરંગ રેલાવતો.
 આ પુડુચેરી નગરથી, ઉપસાગર હૃદયમાં
પ્રવેશતો. મન પ્રશાંત ને હૃદય વિશાળ
એક આલિંગનમાં કરાવતો.









Vaibhav
20/01/2019 and 21/03/2019

From Puducherry diary.

Puducherry Diary - Part X

After a gap of three years I went to puducherry. There were short of excitement as well as anxiety. About how things will shape up. From travelling, staying, meeting and learning. Concern , apprehensions, planning and so much of control we look. Yet.

There is always something unknown. Which we can call X of our life. In equation of life, we want to make our life equal to something. Equal to someone. 

We are given some constant like physical body, time, space and mind. Few variables which seems under our control and few which are not. All variables as well as constant seems under some influence. 

From what we know, our attempt is always to make things suitable, equal to other side of equation. Other side of our equation we want to set as per our expectation. Our projection and predictions of future. Our wish and demands from the universe for a better future.

Yet our ways to solve those linear or quadratice equation of life. Hinges on that one unknown factor X. 

Many approach work for putting a limit, differentiating each and every thing.

While few work for integrating and bringing X in.

If we would have known X.

What is this X in terms of Life?

On first two days of puducherry and one day in transition. I was setting up various equation to get the desirable outcome. 

R.H.S. = Desirable outcome = meeting friends, visiting place, doing things etc.

L.H.S. = time, space, contact details, schedule and planning

Did it ever happened everything you have set up on left hand side meets exactly like that on right hand side.

I know, answer will be NO.

Despite knowing this fact, many time we plan, worry and mind & emotions creates web for us. We tend to get caught and missed up in that web of creation.

Something similar, was happening with me too. But She was there to take hold and bring in change. All planning and scheduling thoughts were running on when I enter samadhi. It went on till I settled down at one place. And soon with Her grace, all of them also got settled and clear.

From that moment on... Many things worked out so well. Unexpected, unplanned meeting, visiting and doing... Life became more joyful and wonderful flow.

Just because the X, which generally remains unknown were known. One set whole of life based on the DIVINE PRESENCE. Which guided, and sets every equation right. 

Many time not equal to also appeared as X has set few more wonderous responses.

One need to find and then trust the X, the unknown of our life equation. Which not only solve our problem but also creates write equation of life.

Flow to Glow

Time is flowing...
Whoever flows, Glow
Who do not
Feels it low.
This is a law.
But do not
Seat and judge
Or make another fuss.
Simply you flow,
You glow.
Do not worry,
There is no hurry.
Hari is waiting
From a long time.
Patience he has a lot.
Perseverance we need to show,
But judge not
Based on your show.
Don't do for a show,
Just flow!
Lot many field to cover,
Lot to plow.
Plant a seed,
Forget the deed,
And you flow.
Leaving glow
For others.
Go,
You have read enough
Now, act and show.
Don't ask how to me.
Who am I to tell.
Just flow, go and do
Questions will emerge
And so does the answer
Remain in flow
Mellow your I
Do good to
Fellow around you.
Do good to you
, Be in a flow.

Vaibhav
15-10-2018
In response to ongoing WA conversation with SOUL.

problem of convenience

આ સગવડો ને મોહ આનો
સગવડ સગવડ પોતાને માટે
સગવડ સગવડ પોતનાઓ માટે,
જો ને કરાવે શું તારી પાસે?
સગ-વગ સગ-વગ
સગે-વગે સગે-વગે
તને તારાથી જે દૂર લઈ જાતી..
જરા જો આ બુદ્ધિ
શાને, બડ્બડ બડ્બડ કરે,
આટલી બધી અગવડ
અરે આ અગવડ
તે સગવડતના નામે ઉભી કરી.
જરા થોભ અને જો,
તે કેવી ગડબડ કરી.

ડબ - ડબ તારા ડગ
તને ક્યા ખેંચી જાય..
ફરી સગવડ અગવડ ના ચક્ર

- vaibhav 25/09/2018


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At very young age I started observing and feeling bad about how we, human. on name of our convenience mold and make each and everything. one of the very loosely used term i remember is 'સગવડીયો ધર્મ' convenient religion.
In our attempt to make everything convenient to our body, to our heart desire and imagination of mind. lot more and more conflicts we have created. see the inconvenience created from conveniences. see the amount of discomfort been raised for your convenience. Isn't this the root.
This movement is very very swift and you will be pulled towards it.
this cycle of convenience-discomfort/inconvenience will go on and on...

Responding to a Call: A journey begins

It's exactly 905 days ago, I went for a call.
Today I am travelling again, in the same train. Last time call was for the service and offering. This time it's for sourcing our oneness.
Call is always felt inside and outer responds to it.
Destinations are different yet aims are same. Person has changed.
Last time I had a travel partner and unreserved ticket. This time (atleast in train), I don't have any travel partner but a reserved ticket. Last time I didn't had plan to return back home. While this time I have not only plan but reserved ticket for return journey.
What's similar is few things planned and few unplanned. Oneness to embrace the unknown. This time more prepared.

Drawing parallel between this two journey itself bringing so much insight, that looking forward with open receptivity for more.

A call from Himalaya
Many time I had planned to be but it's always a call which makes it happen.
It's been always a journey more within then it happens outside.
One needs to prepare for listening and following the call.
Physically, psychologically and mentally there is always more to prepare. As journey happens more frequent and you become a traveller. No, you are on pilgrimage.. preparation becomes shorter and shorter. This happens on physical plane more and goes inward too.
At psychological plane to it takes some time to bring that shift and work.

As I observe, mind has become more ready and in Present moment to receive.
Very less imagery to achieve. Rather welcoming all that comes. Unlike last time, there is more calm to reach and meet himalaya. Not much of thinking of what and how of things to be done and going to happen. When you will reach and all anxiety of journey..Nothing of that sorts comes into view... Memory seen now, past in Present.. future is present as journey unfolds.

Golden Temple Mail

Name of train in which I am moving towards the destination.
Never been at Golden Temple though but feels like going to it.
I don't know when I will visit such holy place nor I want to make another desire for such visit. Let CALL come.
Himalay calling is nothing less then making a golden temple within. So lord can come and stay over there.
Journey makes you little more strong, little more sensitive... As one goes into this TAPAS... One becomes more refine, pure..
जो जले सो कुंदन होवे
To be a gold, a pure gold... One need to go into this fire.
In contrast himalaya fire is more hidden from outside it looks and really feels so cold..
Isn't it testing you, how much fire you are holding within. Not only to survive the extreme weather and climate condition at high altitude but also how you keep this fire for progress burning in the world.
With each journey, I have found that himalaya actually rekindle the fire within. It never exhaust fire within, rather it ignites the new and fresh.

Himalaya.. shall I tell you father or mother. You have been all.
यह राधा, यह धारा, तुमसे ही निकली है।
आज फिर तुम और चली है।
यह जानने के, में कौन हूं?
तुम तो जानते हो सब, देखते हो सब।
तुम्हारी गोद मे फिरसे में वह सब देखना सुनना
चाहता हु।
तुम अटल हो, अचल हो।
में चंचल और तेज।
तुम उच्च शिखरों से गगन से बाते करते।
में निम्न, बस ज़ोर ज़ोर से उसे पुकारता।
बस में इतना ही हु जानता तुम्हे,
तुम और भी बहुत कुछ हो।
कुछ मेरी समझ मे, और कही कुछ मेरी समझ के बाहर।
आज फिर तुम और चली हु,
खुदी को ढूढंने,
खुद को तुझमे खो देने।
यह धारा, यह राधा
उल्टी नही बह रही।
आभास तो यही होता हे,
पर यह सिर्फ आभास हे, हकीक़त नहीं।
मुझे बस इतना पता हे,
में तेरी औऱ चली हूँ।

Bout of Doubts

Bout of Doubts

When in self-doubt

One is in a big bout, against

self v/s self,

decision v/s decision,

thought v/s thought,

and so on.

There are many tout and touts,

for a ring to brought home again.

There is some time,

Actually, most of the time,

There is no meaning to stretch

further, it doesn't take us far

rather brings us down. 

Whenever in a self-doubt

first just bow-down

to universe and wisdom.

Take a deep breathe

Restore your trust on 

the wisdom.

"All is done for good and

will be for good."

Nothing less and more than good.

Are you reading for another

bout

with a 

doubt.

- Vaibhav , Platform No. 6/7, Vasai Road - 9:30Am, Wednesday, 08/02/2017

Who arranged this journey?

Who arranged this journey?
Whether it was by this little i, which claims to be Big.
Or She who always remain present on side and back and everywhere.

At every step, I meet whom i suppose to meet.
However i didn't planned to meet them all.
Sharing took place, wishes shared and gave a push ahead.

At every step, work was there. Waiting, for offering hand.
Just need to go and do, play your part and move on.
Machine or Man put on work,
while a deeper talk with fellow beings goes on.

At every step you see.
someone holds you and takes you there.
Where you supposed to be.
someone holds you and makes you say.
What you supposed to share.

Now, when i seat and reflect.
I wonder and count blessings received.
I wish and pray for well being of all..
with peace, courage and love
let yearning of soul leads our journey on.

Background:

 

 

shall I say

એક ફુલ ખિલ્યાની વાત​, તને કહીં દ​વ​;
હૈયાના આંગણમાં, રુધીરસ સીંચ્યાની વાત​;
પ્રેમની વેલી પર, ફૂલ ખીલ્યાની વાત​;
મૌનની ભાષાથી ઉકેલાતી એ વાત​...
તને કહીં દ​વ​

I am not sure when i wrote this verse [image below]. mostly it should be while travelling and probably during first journey to pondy.

Mumbai Has a Underground Local Trains!

8:30pm in winter, station churni road of mumbai's western railway line. A family boards train toward borivali. Children soon reaches to window and stands there in awe for city and train. Train is moving fast, cutting the darkness and creating its unusual sounds.

Elder one exclaims to younger one "Hey, Now we are underground and train is below earth now!"

Small one looks at him with utter surprise, like he has no sense and heard this word first time. explanations begins, like a sermon and soon again. "Look, we are underground again!!!" "Yes and now we are out!"

Passenger around them looks at them with smile.

Soon a station comes, train halts.

"look this is an underground station." elder one explains while looking out of the window till eyes can stretch. "Yes, you are right" nodded younger one. "Have you seen lighting arrangement? Wasn't it bright?" asked elder and just got a smile from younger one. who is still trying to understand what that means.

Elder one must be 8-9 year old and 3 year elder than younger ones.

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8:30pm, elder one takes a train from Churchgate station. Accompanied by a friend who has come from delhi. showing local train and story of city of dream. Elder one has got this image of crocodile tail city from one of the poem, read during school days. While explaining map of city to friend. Train halts at station and something dawns in mind.

Eyes are now looking out. Searching for something. Simple candid joy comes to heart. smile on face. Unable to believe what is been seen and what was seen.

"Mumbai doesn't have underground train, stupid." Elder one said to himself. Younger one is not along today. At age of 28 now, Elder one recalls those days and wonders what imagination was? Hopes imagination could have grown more bigger. Can it become true? Mumbai with underground trains. 

passing and cutting through Arabian Sea. What a sight it would be? Will it be done in this lifetime or by end of century?

Ohhh!! Imagination...Can we get an underwater rail...

What do you think, Can India go for it...?

underwater train hoax image from internet