Birth and Death

During my yoga teacher training course, Hansa Ma gave us beautiful definition of life. 

That life, which we consider happens between birth and death. In simple and short story, she said life is what happens between 'B' and 'D'. Life is something which happens between birth and death. that is generally what we know. But we forget there is a 'C' in between. C for Choices. This choices is what makes life. 

The Mother of Sri Aurobindo Ashram, Puducherry says

Life is a perpetual choice between truth and falsehood, light and darkness, progress and regression, the ascent towards the heights or a fall into the abyss. It is for each one to choose freely.

29 February 1952

On day of my birth, I have chosen and consecrate all to Parampriya. 

The 35th year of this physical existence and year 2021, I wish to work upon few things and as a practice have taken few steps. Sharing those steps below.

1. Goal and area of work - practice & development for the year can be summed up in 5 C's *
• Capacity (mainly at physical level but not limited there.)
• Collaboration 
• Creation
• Concentration, and
• Consecrate (अर्पण किया हुआ) 
2.  In process I have made a list of 108 things vaibhav would be creating in the year 2021. {even after writing 108, it seems list can go beyond 108.} To fulfill all the need of the creation, there require devotion of time and energy to lot of learning & mastering few art as well as create.
3. To fulfill above goal, I have taken a break from almost all forms of Social Media (Whatsapp, Instagram, Facebook). I wish, I could have taken some more other account deletion too but have kept them open. They are LinkedIn and Telegram. Gmail is unattached yet due to technical complications. 
4. Above social media withdrawal is also part of practice to observe some of the internal working, of whose I have got addicted to. Once 108 are done, I would be back, and in between just to test my own mental & emotional balance and time management, might appear for few days/week. but as of now, and at least for next few weeks, I am away. 
5. There are other choices which are also taking place, but its better to do them rather speak beforehand. 
6. Already collaborating with few people to create courses, material, program. If you are interested to collaborate in learning journey or want to learn along with me - drop an email on vaibhav@love2learn.xyz I will share the list and we can have conversation on how, what to build up. 

Yesterday night, I went through all melodrama of neurons and finally plunge into the virtual death for new creation. This whole experience is just amazing and every passing moment, I can see how much mind is accustom to living and dearly clings to it. How Intellect looses the power and serves the senses, making us do things which we want and we do not want.

For some of you this might look shocking, strange or silly. May that be so. 

Hope to see you here and few places more real. and May be on virtual world after gap of time.

* C - of choices and other C's is something I love. C of Carbon is second largest constituents of the body and what is left on earth after we pass away. One of the program I ran last year CiC, in which 14 people got chance to interact & learn is wholly based upon the choices and consciousness. This year, I wish to design it in collaboration with participant & make it more experiential with real projects.

  

In between Sri Rama & Sri Krishna, you will find appearance of

In between Sri Rama & Sri Krishna, you will find appearance of ______________ 

When one sees the life of Lord Sri Rama and Lord Sri Krishna from surface level. What one finds is contrary, two extremes view points. Many time logical rational mind stops working after baffling with thoughts 'around who is the ideal to follow?'

As one starts observing one's own mind and look at the source, core principle on which life of our great heroes revolve around. One starts getting a sense that there is more than what mind can comprehend. Habitually mind looks at the part and forgets the context presented by place, time and circumstances. Why mind does like that? Maybe mind has been trained to work in that way - Observe - bisect - make small pieces - investigate - understand - plan - apply - analysis - repeat. This seems a process mind follows. Wait! there is actually few steps more in the process about which we are not yet trained fully, consciously. After apply, there is a reflection and synthesis as well at plan and apply level flexibility or say allowance for emergence is need to be taken care along with initial process from observe to understand one can not afford to forget the framework in which (context) all this is done. Once three important point of reflection & synthesis, allowance for emergence and keeping context in mind. we will find something emerging in our mind. Allows us to go higher than the mind. 

And when we see the life of our two heroes little more intimately, we will find that there are many common points. One among them is standing up for the values which was most appropriate and needed to safe guard in their time. One will soon find that such situation arises in everyone's life too. There is a gradual evolution, a progression of mind - to set life on higher & higher principles. Not to misuse the gift and live rightfully. Leading on the path... In between doubt-Belief-faith; restrain - freedom - Equanimity...  

... Somewhere we will meet, in between Sri Rama & Sri Krishna - Buddha. A Buddha who is in you. 

A guide to handle both the extreme of the life. 

Life full of actions & rest, serious & joyful. Ability to hold contradictions, dillema, paradox life presents. 

On the day of Buddha Purnima, May our soul sets on fire. In between Sri Rama and Sri Krishna, we also meet Lord Buddha. May we find our middle ground to hold the value, unique & special to us. Just like each one of them hold few values and principle. 

PS Note:

There are plenty of stuff, which I can not write and describe right now. Nor i thing I have such ability or language gives me such power. If its unclear, let it be. If it offends someone, I am sorry! forgive me. Writing is also somewhere influence by writings of Sri Aurobindo and what he has talked/written about them. 

titbit

Titbit titbit

Tibtit tibtit

I am

Water droplet

Titbit of water.

I am 

Rock dust

Titbit of earth
or star dust?

Bit bit i know

Bit bit of i am made

But want to take a byte of big

So much beating of sound

By tiny, titbit

બધાની પસંદ હોય!

બધાની પસંદ હોય!
જરૂરી નથી કે તે સમ હોય
વિષમ પસંદ જો તમોને ડંશ દે,
ત્યાં વળી સંપને ખોય?

પુછતા નહી કોણ? અને શાને?
આ હું કોણ ને તેની પસંદ કઈ કઈ
તેનુજ ગાણું છે?
હું ને પસંદ નો સગપણ,
ઘડપણ સુધી સાથે ચાલતું ઍક નાણુ
ભલભલા ને ગબડાવે,
જો ના જાણે, હું કોણ?

આમ પડદાની પાછળ,
પણ ચાલે બધે આગળ.
હું કે હું ની પસંદ?

સાદગી પણ હોય!
દેખાવો પણ હોય!
પણ મળવાનું શું
આ પસંદના ફેરામાં?
જોતો નથી વૈભવ બજારોનો,
પસંદના નામે તો છલકાવે છે.
લાભ-હાની ની ક્યા ક્યા ભરમાવે તે
ઍક નહી અનેક હું ને હું ની પસંદના ઘેરામા
ઢેર ઢેર ઠરતા હું ને જોયા છે.
તરતા હું થોડા રહ્યા,
જે જાણી લે ખરો હું ને હું ની પસંદ શુન્ય.

Addressing the question

Why we do not address the question, which really concern us?

Do we really take trouble to zero down to the question? Solving which rest can be put at their rightful place.

Why we tend to ask more questions related to daily life and issue related to work upon, tip of iceberg? And get frighten when we see what's beneath.

Hasn't our schooling instilled a fear of questioning?

Hasn't our family and society, has brought in fear of questioning? 

Is questioning means revolting, disobeying?

What if I just ask internally for my own entertainment?

Ohh! really questioning is good sport, an entertainment for a mind. 

Moment one goes for it one is not using a tool wisely.

But my question is, what stops us to address the question?

Answer is simple.

At one level, can be summed up in just one letter.

'I"

Movement, you start addressing a question. You know, more questions will come. One leading to another. Eventually, it will ask some very fundamental questions. That requires a whole lot of effort. Those question has power to shake empire of 'I'. One which was build up after so much of effort. So any change is disliked.

I also run away from the question. Answering question is very uncomfortable business. I do not like to feel uncomfortable. So, what to do?

Do not ask questions.

Keep ignoring the questions.

Hide yourself.

Give generic superficial answer but don't do anything.

But whatever happens, do not address the question. as all route leads to destruction of I. emergence of something about which its difficult to speak.

Puducherry Diary - Part X

After a gap of three years I went to puducherry. There were short of excitement as well as anxiety. About how things will shape up. From travelling, staying, meeting and learning. Concern , apprehensions, planning and so much of control we look. Yet.

There is always something unknown. Which we can call X of our life. In equation of life, we want to make our life equal to something. Equal to someone. 

We are given some constant like physical body, time, space and mind. Few variables which seems under our control and few which are not. All variables as well as constant seems under some influence. 

From what we know, our attempt is always to make things suitable, equal to other side of equation. Other side of our equation we want to set as per our expectation. Our projection and predictions of future. Our wish and demands from the universe for a better future.

Yet our ways to solve those linear or quadratice equation of life. Hinges on that one unknown factor X. 

Many approach work for putting a limit, differentiating each and every thing.

While few work for integrating and bringing X in.

If we would have known X.

What is this X in terms of Life?

On first two days of puducherry and one day in transition. I was setting up various equation to get the desirable outcome. 

R.H.S. = Desirable outcome = meeting friends, visiting place, doing things etc.

L.H.S. = time, space, contact details, schedule and planning

Did it ever happened everything you have set up on left hand side meets exactly like that on right hand side.

I know, answer will be NO.

Despite knowing this fact, many time we plan, worry and mind & emotions creates web for us. We tend to get caught and missed up in that web of creation.

Something similar, was happening with me too. But She was there to take hold and bring in change. All planning and scheduling thoughts were running on when I enter samadhi. It went on till I settled down at one place. And soon with Her grace, all of them also got settled and clear.

From that moment on... Many things worked out so well. Unexpected, unplanned meeting, visiting and doing... Life became more joyful and wonderful flow.

Just because the X, which generally remains unknown were known. One set whole of life based on the DIVINE PRESENCE. Which guided, and sets every equation right. 

Many time not equal to also appeared as X has set few more wonderous responses.

One need to find and then trust the X, the unknown of our life equation. Which not only solve our problem but also creates write equation of life.

line and curve in stories of life

"There is a meaning in each line and curve."

- Sri Aurobindo, Savitri, P.460

Today, February First marks six month being out of Job. Last six month spent in Exploring world through various lenses and finding a life.

31^st July 2018 was a last day in The Polymath School. Farewell has been a touchy thing. Specially when you have deep rooted connections. To organize simple task of putting cake and begin celebration, no one was coming forward and passing games were on. At the end, one has to stand and order, get oneself doing few part.

There are and will remain many stories around sudden move of mine. Leaving a established job, work, students, friends and many more. Especially when you been to USA tour for school purpose just a month back. Let all versions of stories remain with their respective speakers and listener. What I want to share today are two things – first and foremost questions and few pointers which lead to Resignation and early exit. Secondly, answering another question. What I am up to, now?

Why?

 It's been six months and many people still ask this questions. My answers are various stories, different each time either with all facts or few facts & rest. Sharing this also give me sense of clarity and way to share curent and next move. 

Questions and Pointer

1.      Are you under influence?

2.      What do you want to do?

3.      You say, I will do it in 2020 or from 2022 onwards. Why not now? Go for that Now.

4.      Going back to the root [words are altered here and put in more positive tone.  J ]

5.      Watching Marathi Movie, ‘Bucket-List’ (Madhuri Dixit’s first Marathi movie) [final seal on resignation letter, came after watching it.]

We are always under the influence of various forces of Nature. It is a Nature - human, animal, earth and others which acts in and through us most of time. Very few have a control, rest of us are always under some influence.  

-         What is meant by ‘sincere’?

-         Sincerity means to accept the Divine Influence only and not that of lower forces. – Sri Aurobindo (CWSA-29)

In simple terms I found that we are either influenced by Fear, Love and in between them.

Last six month went behind experimenting and finding what one wants. What are the things which affects and influence this being.

And what I wanted to start or do and live from 2022, when I will reach age of 35. I will be consecrating at the feet of The Master on his 150^th Birth anniversary. I intend to start and try to live from now onwards.

So, what is that... second part of sharing thus begins. Still all is in its very primitive stage. What I am sharing is few basic where about and work.

1.     Pause to the work of ‘School of Universal Life’ (S.O.U.L.) may be for a whole year. It is a pause till emergence of better program and formation of few things.

2.     Being Part of community living. Lovingly called Anahad – beyond limits. Here its location details, for those who are inquisitive to know more about what we are doing and other things please mail on jiyomatiry@gmail.com or call.

3.     Few project work in Mumbai as well support to few individual & organization will go on for a year or two.

But most importantly a base for all above is living a life. Life as one should – connected with Self, with nature and living from within. Goal is a transition from Teacher-Facilitator to Aacharya.

At the end of six months, here I am.

Filled with stories of past, its various versions heard and unheard.  With full of possibility in present and future to draw lines and curve, by connecting dots, weaving yet another stories. Looking back each line and curve holds a deeper meaning, moving somewhere. Now what is require is to see next connecting dot and next connecting dot and others are in direction of progress or not?

Eti Shubham

[Ref: http://sasp.collaboration.org/individual.html ]

One learning of 2018 : Dialogue

Ending the year with one of the most important element of learning. A practice as well as learning which happen through out the year. At many front of life still not able to apply or be effective.

Dialogue according to me is a open sincere communication with...

1. Oneself at all level and parts of being. Physical, Emotional, Mental, spiritual.
2. Other beings
3.Ones surrounding - Nature

Why?

One of the best tool to unleash and discover ones true self.

I learnt a process on dialogue during retreat held up at Krishnamurti study centre, bangalore @ Valley School. and still await to read, do, discuss on dialogue under the light of few materials collected. Sharing one part here.

"A dialogue is very important. It is a form of communication in which question and answer continue till a question is left without an answer. Thus the question is suspended between the two persons involved in this answer and question. It is like a bud with untouched blossoms . . . If the question is left totally untouched by thought, it then has its own answer because the questioner and answerer, as persons, have disappeared. This is a form of dialogue in which investigation reaches a certain point of intensity and depth, which then has a quality that thought can never reach." 

-Jiddu Krishnamurti

On other side, found it very difficult to practice at professional world which is full of Caprice. While at relationship front, struggle is on. Most of the time infact always we are more interested on answer , that to of our own preference. It's a practice in dialogue where we can slowly let go our perceptions, views, beliefs and preferences. Our attachments binding us to rome in same periphery during communication. Not allowing is to take a flight nor to dive deep in multiple questions and answer.

Dialogue with oneself has become so crucial that it reveals our inner and outer crust. Allowing us to Be.

When one is ready to change, other side is also willing than language is not a barrier. Silent dialogue becomes more effective and powerful.
If willingness is not there. Dialogues turns into discussions, debate and quarrel. While one person inner peace can bring sense of dialogue in any conversation.

Often I find myself on inner dialogue while I am still on work or conversation with someone else. Many insights have come when I am on inner dialogue while conversation is On at outer level. Somewhere benefiting both of us.

Looking forward for more such meaningful communication with self, Self and you all as part of Self.

eti Shubham

Do you have a Dream Team?

Do you have a Dream Team?

Your own personal team. Not of IPL or EPL, but your personal team which has power to guide, mould as well as make you a happy, successful Person. A person you truly deserve to Be.

I am going to share something very personal with a hope that it may help you to lead a life.

The phrase ‘Dream Team’ is not new or well held secret. It was known secret by many different names. In Indian tradition it used to be called as kula devi and ista devata [clan goddess and personal idols]. In Arabia they were called farishtey and In Rome-Europe they were called Angels. Here we are not going into region and religion, but will take up that very idea into our Age.

What we going to do is, take an overview of the process and products. Than i will answer common question pertaining to Dream Team and last will share my own experience as an example, to see how process works.

Imagine you have an appointment with five person whom you consider as your ideal/well-wisher. May be they are among Gandhi and Vivekananda or Einstein and Bose or Abdul Kalam and Kalpana Chawla or Steve Jobs and Tata or Krishna and Christ or Your Father and Friend. They all are going to come together just to meet you at mountain hill top. Out of their busy schedule and hectic work-load, all of them are coming just to help you, encourage you. This time you have some particular questions for them. Those question may be about problems you are facing in relations/family/study/work or any thing under the sun or just question out of curiosity. Those questions doesn’t matter to them, they are joyful ever and what they are looking forward is to see you and have a conversation with you. You are also excited about meeting them, personally and sharing your life moment.

After meeting… you come to your home and still cherishing those moments you recollect what they had said to you. You are at peace now, as you have found answers of your questions, solutions of few problems and you are confident enough to tackle those problems now. This is what Dream Team does to you, sets you on positive note. Rekindles spirit within you and make you in touch with solutions hidden within you. believe it or not, all of them are there to help you and guide you. Only thing you have to do is to take out some time from your schedule, seat in silence, call them, meet them. Spend some wonderful time with them. As you will relax, flow of creativity, abundance of love and bliss will engulf you. They will fill you with new hope, new energy to work with patience and perseverance till you achieve your goal.

So are you ready to meet your Dream Team? To Unleash power of yours with them and creating a better future. Here is a way towards that in a question answer format.

What is a Dream Team?

It is a team of personalities with highest qualities and virtues. Those who have done something significant in their life-time. This significant things may be for their families and friends or for community or for profession they were in or for whole nation and world. All member of team, has a vision to see beyond and courage to follow up their vision. Or may be they were hard-working, happy individual who walked the path with dignity.

You have some good connection with them. You have now become fellow traveller with them. and as your journey move on, Whenever you are stuck or want some assistance or help, they come to meet and assist you. They are link between your problem and solutions.

Whom to take in your Dream Team?

One can select any one in this team. Someone you adore for their well doing. Someone on whom you have trust and know that they can give you right guidance. It may be any person from your family to famous personalities. That person might be living or has left a legacy. There is no upper-limit for how many members one should have in one dream team. May be you want to start with small three or five member team. take care that they represent different domains of life, from relation to religion and profession to personal.

Some important pointer for selecting your dream team:

1 - You should have fair amount of knowledge about those personalities, either by personal experience or through their acts or through their biographies.

2 - Select one who matches with your personality more.

3 - Rather than thinking about them, just close your eyes, go in silence and they will find you - they will come to you.

How to meet them? When and Where to meet them?

Once you have prepared your dream team and known who’s who. You are ready to meet them. You can select any beautiful place where just you and your dream team can spend some good time. You can call them anytime and from anywhere. At initial stage keeping time and place [physical ones] fixed, helps a lot to continue the process. Whenever you call them, don’t go because you have problem. first just start meeting with them, feel how much in awe you will be when legends like them are in front of you. What kind of thoughts and feelings will be there. Share those things with them. Once you establish a relation, narrate your problem or ask your questions to them. remember be specific, provide every detail yet remaining to the point. They have come specially for you, so take care of their time. Sometime you can be direct and ask “How you have tackled so and so situations?” they might give answers then or they inspire you to read something from their works or come in contact with silence. Sometime [mostly when mind is too active] it seems they are not coming or telling what you want, than don’t keep on persisting to find something, Rather wind-up your meeting and talk about that in your next meeting. There are no rules of how many time you can meet in a week or a month. Its upto you, meeting daily or once a week might be good start.

Still, I am not able to understand and follow you?

Ok, no problem what you can do is find 30 minutes of time from your schedule. Download this meditation file. Seat in your room or any place where you can be just with yourself for half an hour. Play this audio file and follow the instruction. link for file : https://soundcloud.com/nithya-shanti/dream_team or you can google it ‘Dream Team Meditation with Nithya Shanti’. I came across this somewhere four years ago and had practiced it few times. Even Though I have never got chance to do dream team meditation personally with Nithya Shanti still audio contains same amount of power as you are with him. Audio gives clear instructions and by second and third attempt you will be familiar with what to do and how to do it. The Dream Team Meditation always solves my questions at least, may be because method came to me naturally some nine year ago. My own example may help you to understand dream team little better.

In audio file it is mentioned as dream team meditation. But for me it did not came as a meditation technique or as part of any technique. I was reading Swami Vivekananda’s Book in year 2006. Where He had mentioned that Indian Youth should worship Hanumanji, Sri Ram, Sri Krishna and Kali - Ma. Swamiji elaborated what qualities they have and why youth should worship them. [Hanuman - Service and Humility, Ram - Discipline, Krishna - Perfection and love, Kali - Power] And in same book he talked about having your personal Ideal and Master in life.

Taking hint from Swamiji’s message on night of Diwali, I wrote a letter to whom i call Fabulous Five and Superb Seven. In letter i just stated that I have selected you as my team member, I will be happy to receive you and share many things with you. Thereafter almost everyday in my diary i used to address them and share incidents of days to them and sometime ask questions about life, work, situations to them. Sometime answers comes soon and sometime never, sometime it comes in very unusual way and from unexpected sources. for example, last week I had asked my dream team certain question about life and before i complete my questioning and sharing. I received call from my uncle to come at his home urgently. I went there and found he had some urgent work and need to go with aunt far. grand-ma is alone at home so to take care till night. I was not prepared for spending time at uncle, no laptop or mobile or any book. I was stuck there just with food, grand-ma and television. After some time I started watching movie and as somewhere i was in half-sleep suddenly one of the member came and said pay attention, this movie are going to give answer of today’s question. And to surprise they gave it also.

When something like this happen, first of all it's hard to believe but as you trust and move on you will find that you are filled with peace and bliss, which stays like a tranquil water of lake. Over time I have extended my dream team. Let me introduce them to you, so you have little more idea. I have three teams. Fabulous Five is direct inspiration and as per words of Swami Vivekananda. Instead of Four of Swamiji’s - Hanumanji, Sri Ram, Sri Krishna, Kali Ma and Ganeshji. I kept ganeshji as I like him a lot and believed to be giver of intellect. To make further link with them out of many spiritual Master I have selected few, and they have some inter-related link. They are Ram Krishna Paramhansh, Swami Vivekananda, Maa Sarada, Sri Aurobindo, The Mother, Pandit Sri Ram Sharma Aacharya and Maa Bhagwati Devi.

And now the last one, whom i imagine in any normal situation and find what they would have done if they were in such a case. This team consist of Dr. Abdul Kalam, Nithya Shanti, Rahul Dravid (cricketer - only exception) and two more member from my profession, my seniors & mentor. Even though I can meet and talk with them, but sometime it’s difficult to find or share everything. Just knowing them and following dream team works out well.

What are you waiting for, your Dream Team is waiting for you. To realise your Dream…

• Vidhyut Veg (26-05-2015)

What is Yoga?

What is yoga?
A question so easy to answer. Just repeat from the scripture or what siddha said on it.


Before you read anything further, please note down or at least frame your own answer. What do you know? What do you believe? What you understand from the word Yoga and Yoga in your own world? Are both the meaning word yoga and yoga in your world in complete alignment?

At The Yoga Institute, we were encouraged to define our own meaning, deepen our own understanding. So we were not only taught tradition and other meanings of yoga. Rather to define and make it our own.

I got mine...

Yoga is alignment. At least that's the first milestone on the way and at the end. When there will be perfect individual, perfect society. Not as per our imagination and mental thinking, but when alignment of every parts been achieved. When oneness be felt, what seems scattered, dispersed are unified and brought at its right place. But for a time being, for sake of practice. It's always better to know and talk of near goal. Thus Yoga is Alignment.
Alignment of our thought, speech and act; Alignment of my whole body; Alignment of Head-Heart & Hand; Alignment of individual with society and universe. Alignment at all level...I can relate to it much easily?

Have you find out for yourself, What is Yoga? With what you can relate to easily? Something which you can practice?

Will be sharing more on Alignment soon. At the end sharing one of the very famous words of Sri Aurobindo, from his book 'Synthesis of Yoga'.

હું ઉજાસ લઈ આવ્યો

હું ઉજાસ લઈ આવ્યો,
તારા આંગણે.
તું ઉદાસ થઈ બોલ્યો,
કે રાખ તારા આંગણે.
અમો મસ્ત છીએ,
અંધારા ઉલેચતા.
ત્રસ્ત ના કરશો, મહેરબાની!
રાખજો પાસે પોતાની વાણી.
પણ,
હું તો ઉજાસ લઈ ને આવ્યો,
સંગાથે ઉમંગ, ઉલ્લાસ ઇ લાવ્યો.
ઊંડી લાગે તારી તરસ
પરસ્ત થવા નહીં ...

( incomplete)..

Vaibhav
07/11/2018

Diwali 2018 : Alignment

“It’s very common that people who have had deep and significant spiritual awakenings will at some point have to meet their inner shadow at a very deep and fundamental level. Through dealing with this shadow material, we become more and more aligned—but not with ideas of right and wrong, good and bad. There is a different kind of alignment here, an alignment with that inner sense of spiritual reality, love and divine being.”

~ Adyashanti

from, Resurrecting Jesus; https://bit.ly/2ckn6iD

What came to me, inner learning.... a lesson in alignment

The moment, awakening begins. Sun rises into the sky. thus shadow is bound to come. Shadow is bound to grow. Darkness will be spared out but shadow grows and haunts. Only when you have deeply aligned with the sun. Sun the light of supreme wisdom. Alignment with reality. shadow disappears. movement, alignment goes with the light. shadow is back in action. and time will come when a deep dive in light and you are light. one wishes! even if it's an imagination. one aspire for it. a one deep dive for alignment.

A simple observation of shadow and light, teaches so many things. Withstanding the noon sun. always keeping that high powerful all above everything. One need to grow that capabilities.

Still in the darkness all this sounds magical and rightful, doable. Night a preparation ground, to deal with shadow caste by inner lamps. when real lamp arrives?

There is no point of return, you are in light.

Even if you return into darkness, ignorance.

Light will be with you.

I don't know from where this words come.

whether they are right or wrong.

I don't see on left and right.

sometime in search of alignment, one scatters out.

One scatters out to rearrange and place things at right places.

To take out and observe,

Accept and put it at right place. again don't judge by thy mind.

as they have past the scrutiny of trinity of intellect. high above the mind.

They too have rejected, low standard ignorant just to pass back again and transform into the light.

On the first day of Diwali, starting from today I wish for alignment.

Let this Diwali be Diwali of alignment with inner light. let Ram dwelling inside comes out and adorn the thorn.

Let this Diwali, be another step of alignment of various forces. Let all come back into its rightful circles of infinity. Close channels of love and harmony be opened to get align.

Align thy mind-heart-body around the Ram.

Ram not the one, who had taken birth in palace.

Ram who is still awaiting his birth in and through you.

Krishna whose flute music once enchanted the vrindavan,

same is waiting to come out in and through you.

Buddha's compassionate eyes which looked at the world.

Waiting for your third eye to open and look out, from within.

Alignment, Mahavira's courage be with you.

may we all align towards harmonious life, around universal life.

Alignment is a way towards Enlightenment.

scared to sacred

I am scared, I am afraid.

I am sacred, yet unrealized, un-manifested.

That's the why, I am scared & I am afraid.

Will things will repeat, as it had happen?

How long this past will last?

awaiting the future, thy glory and thy grace

I am sacred, so pure & delight.

still why, its so afraid to take up a flight?

move into unknown, move in & out.

Where is that? what we call, Love.

Love isn't it whole of existence.

There is a divide, where will you show unite?

Words are flowing and world is floating

some sense of directions

some menace of thoughts & emotions.

Come, O Lord to help me out.

Calling, Calling waiting & waiting.

Let love grow, patience & persevere.

O Lord come down! make me thine.

- Vaibhav

04/06/2018

Its movie time again - 7:00pm, 28-10-2018, found this on internet

scared sacred (trailer)- a beautiful documentary.

for full documentary - NFB - Scared Sacred

When I truly understand that, this I is not a stand alone entity. 

Rather, this I which is called Me, is nothing but a We. 

True sacredness, harmony will emerge.

can you play, a safe game?

Mega game, called life
have you seen it? 
have you lived it? 
have you played it?
Ohh, wait... wait...

let me first find out
who I am? in this
Mega game called life.
I am a player or creator or spectator?
I am an umpire or groundsman or commentator?
Where i see myself?
all, I assume,
shall we resume?

Wait..

No!

Pause! can this be applied to
Mega game called life.
Just go on, or gone!
Really, not sure! 
are there only to options
go on or gone?
It seems so, but... but..

lets probe from somewhere else,
On what ground this game being played?
Is it a space or something else?
game so inclusive, can't see
on so many different grounds,
is it just one game with one innings or many
is it just one game or many games within a games
is it just one game at many grounds, 
where shall i found?
i said,
lets probe from somewhere else,
you always hit a wall
why you always search a fault?
every time you fall.
To make a wells,
you need to dig up well.

Fine, fine, shall we continue to play?
Where to begin but...
I don't see any start or end of it?
Ohh, Isn't you have end in your mind?
What are you saying? 
shall we not play with words and mind!
Ok. 
observe, isn't you always want to win.
a clear end in your mind.
which you always want to find.
whether you make sin, 
or shine.
it's hard to take rest
but one feel to be relax.
flex your arm
not always to follow
what you love
but just to do.

Just go on,
following the laws and rule,
following the foot steps
all the others do
you coward!
'cause your arm can be
flexed by others too.
so you flex your arm
play the game
try to win the race
kill the one
just become rest of one.
never rest
in fear of arrest
or is it other way round
arrested in rules of game
never you rest.
you change the rule,
do you even know the rule?
you change the rule, 
comfort and go on win.
relax, what's lacking in you?
fake and make believe
all goes on, in
Mega game called life.

is I am writing and
you are reading
to find what this game is all about?
to find some solutions of trivial problem of
Mega game called life.

I feel, let's get back to work,
just observe with openness 
ask, aspire to receive.
But you want 
you want everything predictable
you want to play safe
that's the reason you always get caught
Goal! never made, and wicket always fall.

Do you really like predictable games?
If answer is in big No.
how you enjoy and look always 
for and from predictable answers
predictable sources
dictator of its own kind.
if you can't find
go to those story teller
predictions! Predictions!
Pre and post
what you do all the time
post-mortem.

Let game go on
anyways, gone!

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How this piece came up?
So, around noon time came across a status on FB.
Where one of the thought which I used to share and tell a lot were written and explain in more rightful words. 'Everyone is a philosopher.'
Search began to find the article, around that. first i had a felling that i had wrote around it and posted here on blog. after few failures and reconfirming, I haven't. I looked up into old desktop. I found the file, but only with title and few link.
that's where I found another file and something more interesting came up. presenting only last line of it.

...But you see, we don't want to invite life, we want to play a safe game; and those who play a safe game die very safely. 

This words of J. Krishnamurti  resonated so well, at the current state of being. specially, when you are unemployed or self occupied in work. trying to find out how to live a life. 

So, words and images floated around. As usual, i tried to break the words to find the meaning. 

Like many other time, letters were separated. playing crossword. G - A - M - E... little rearrangement and it becomes M-E-G-A.

Thus,

Mega game called life.

and rest kept on flowing, some in making.

As i wrote down this prose, i again kept on asking google for its meaning. of different words.

and found a phrase... so here it goes.

Mega game called life,

hiding a gem called life.

so how this game of hide & seek going?

isn't this a safe game, 

we want to play.

we want to hide all that's ours and 

still keep on seeking, what's all out there.

what you seek, keeps on hiding from you. 

and you on hunt, 

hiding few things more and 

seeking few things less.

In the movement of moments

let change be new rule.

discover all hidden and show them out

what you seek, any way you going to get.

-vaibhav
26-10-2018

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27-10-2018
again found a beautiful song, depicting the words in more musical and lyrical form.
game called life

Flow to Glow

Time is flowing...
Whoever flows, Glow
Who do not
Feels it low.
This is a law.
But do not
Seat and judge
Or make another fuss.
Simply you flow,
You glow.
Do not worry,
There is no hurry.
Hari is waiting
From a long time.
Patience he has a lot.
Perseverance we need to show,
But judge not
Based on your show.
Don't do for a show,
Just flow!
Lot many field to cover,
Lot to plow.
Plant a seed,
Forget the deed,
And you flow.
Leaving glow
For others.
Go,
You have read enough
Now, act and show.
Don't ask how to me.
Who am I to tell.
Just flow, go and do
Questions will emerge
And so does the answer
Remain in flow
Mellow your I
Do good to
Fellow around you.
Do good to you
, Be in a flow.

Vaibhav
15-10-2018
In response to ongoing WA conversation with SOUL.

Responding to a Call: A journey begins

It's exactly 905 days ago, I went for a call.
Today I am travelling again, in the same train. Last time call was for the service and offering. This time it's for sourcing our oneness.
Call is always felt inside and outer responds to it.
Destinations are different yet aims are same. Person has changed.
Last time I had a travel partner and unreserved ticket. This time (atleast in train), I don't have any travel partner but a reserved ticket. Last time I didn't had plan to return back home. While this time I have not only plan but reserved ticket for return journey.
What's similar is few things planned and few unplanned. Oneness to embrace the unknown. This time more prepared.

Drawing parallel between this two journey itself bringing so much insight, that looking forward with open receptivity for more.

A call from Himalaya
Many time I had planned to be but it's always a call which makes it happen.
It's been always a journey more within then it happens outside.
One needs to prepare for listening and following the call.
Physically, psychologically and mentally there is always more to prepare. As journey happens more frequent and you become a traveller. No, you are on pilgrimage.. preparation becomes shorter and shorter. This happens on physical plane more and goes inward too.
At psychological plane to it takes some time to bring that shift and work.

As I observe, mind has become more ready and in Present moment to receive.
Very less imagery to achieve. Rather welcoming all that comes. Unlike last time, there is more calm to reach and meet himalaya. Not much of thinking of what and how of things to be done and going to happen. When you will reach and all anxiety of journey..Nothing of that sorts comes into view... Memory seen now, past in Present.. future is present as journey unfolds.

Golden Temple Mail

Name of train in which I am moving towards the destination.
Never been at Golden Temple though but feels like going to it.
I don't know when I will visit such holy place nor I want to make another desire for such visit. Let CALL come.
Himalay calling is nothing less then making a golden temple within. So lord can come and stay over there.
Journey makes you little more strong, little more sensitive... As one goes into this TAPAS... One becomes more refine, pure..
जो जले सो कुंदन होवे
To be a gold, a pure gold... One need to go into this fire.
In contrast himalaya fire is more hidden from outside it looks and really feels so cold..
Isn't it testing you, how much fire you are holding within. Not only to survive the extreme weather and climate condition at high altitude but also how you keep this fire for progress burning in the world.
With each journey, I have found that himalaya actually rekindle the fire within. It never exhaust fire within, rather it ignites the new and fresh.

Himalaya.. shall I tell you father or mother. You have been all.
यह राधा, यह धारा, तुमसे ही निकली है।
आज फिर तुम और चली है।
यह जानने के, में कौन हूं?
तुम तो जानते हो सब, देखते हो सब।
तुम्हारी गोद मे फिरसे में वह सब देखना सुनना
चाहता हु।
तुम अटल हो, अचल हो।
में चंचल और तेज।
तुम उच्च शिखरों से गगन से बाते करते।
में निम्न, बस ज़ोर ज़ोर से उसे पुकारता।
बस में इतना ही हु जानता तुम्हे,
तुम और भी बहुत कुछ हो।
कुछ मेरी समझ मे, और कही कुछ मेरी समझ के बाहर।
आज फिर तुम और चली हु,
खुदी को ढूढंने,
खुद को तुझमे खो देने।
यह धारा, यह राधा
उल्टी नही बह रही।
आभास तो यही होता हे,
पर यह सिर्फ आभास हे, हकीक़त नहीं।
मुझे बस इतना पता हे,
में तेरी औऱ चली हूँ।