Wednesday, October 31, 2018

scared to sacred

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I am scared, I am afraid.
I am sacred, yet unrealized, un-manifested.
That's the why, I am scared & I am afraid.


Will things will repeat, as it had happen?
How long this past will last?
awaiting the future, thy glory and thy grace
I am sacred, so pure & delight.
still why, its so afraid to take up a flight?
move into unknown, move in & out.
Where is that? what we call, Love.

Love isn't it whole of existence.
There is a divide, where will you show unite?
Words are flowing and world is floating
some sense of directions
some menace of thoughts & emotions.
Come, O Lord to help me out.
Calling, Calling waiting & waiting.
Let love grow, patience & persevere.
O Lord come down! make me thine.

- Vaibhav
04/06/2018


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Its movie time again - 7:00pm, 28-10-2018, found this on internet
scared sacred (trailer)- a beautiful documentary.

for full documentary - NFB - Scared Sacred

When I truly understand that, this I is not a stand alone entity. 
Rather, this I which is called Me, is nothing but a We. 
True sacredness, harmony will emerge.

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

I am a season

I am a season,
I come back again & again.
never tired, never exhausted
never quenched, till ends are met.
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I am a season,
I come back again & again
wear wonder, found on a yonder
I am a season.
I am never the same,
yet remain forever alike.

- vaibhav
04-06-2018

Monday, October 29, 2018

આ બધા વિચારો,
સ્પષ્ટ દેખાતા, અસ્પષ્ટ સમજાતા.
આ બધા વિચારો,
પોતાનાં  પારકાના,
ગમતા - અણગમતા
સાથી - વિરોધી.
આ બધા વિચારો.

આ વિચારો મને મારા લાગે છે.
આતો મનના મને ચારા લાગે છે.

બધાજતો ચોરીના છે,
ની થોડા ઉધારીના.

કઈ મૂલ્યવાન પોતીકા
જડ્યા જડે કેની?
આ વિચારો.

અસ્તવ્યસ્ત, ખુદમાંજ મસ્ત
કોઈ સશક્ત દોરવી જનારા
કોઈ અશ્ક્ત ડુબાવી જનારા
કોઈ દુભવી, પરખાવી જનારા
તે કંઈ વિશેષ....
આ બધા વિચારો...


Vaibhav
27-01-2018




Sunday, October 28, 2018

Schooling to be animal, Human animal

Disclaimer: First of all I ask for forgiveness to all teachers, students, animal and mother. except the first point on which I wanted to write about, since long. but couldn't get that flow nor a more substantial material. It's written in some negative, grey taste. What I am going to put might not suits to many persons taste. But this is what i am feeling and so sharing. Not with the intention of hurting. Actually, i want to hurt and nudge those crystalline part - so we wake up and do something. Think about what actually we are doing.


1 - From very beginning we are trained to be a copy cat.
Many people can even tell you answers along with their questions, and in which previous examination it came. In every class (including mathematics and science - where problem solving, research and experiments should preside) we are taught how to answer exactly in same words. even words here there, means loss of those bones. bones which are thrown in front of us to do the work.
As a simple animal, I really get confuse. I like those bones.. and in exams I tried to use the same method of copy. previously I copied from the black/white/green board, then from textbook, then someones voice. In exams I am expected to copy from my memory, without adding or removing anything. [! Because teacher are so poor]
But, here is the twist. But if I now copy during exams from someone else text, some voice - I am termed as a cheater. I did something wrong. I am which animal. keep guessing. Poor animals.
Then why the hell you are teaching to copy from the board. every where you copy, copy and copy. and where , when you really need it. sorry! you can not copy.
Story doesn't end here, we are so bonded by this chain, rest of our life. We just copy, hardly questions. questions only things which permits and keep us in our self safe zone. 

I  guess, this is good training to be a ________ like the dog. so you keep on copy only, do some innovation in finding your bones or holding them. but essentially remain in the same loop. Can't do something different. they have gauze the potential of mind and want to restrict to level of chimpanzee only.

2 - I feel we are been trained to be chameleon. for our own survival. it goes against? all this learning are so subtle, few catches and plays the game so well.. really! yes, at least as per the worldly, human mind ways well life. In reality, is in question mark. like those sheep and donkey who wears skin of lion. because lion is held very high. success is the thing. whatever you do, be even like those fox and wolf and crocodile or whatever image, SUCCESS. we are schooled to be all this animal. let's invoke the animal within but the one which suits us. The one which can work and look good in garden but not the animal you show in forest.

3 - We are forcefully and wrongly feed with darwin's theory on evolution. So we behave more like an animal to survive in this mad concrete and all sorts of jungle.

4 - We are schooled and trained like we are animal in schools. Just for performance, rest we are back in our cage. That's how we are cultured.

5 - Just imagine, if snake were trained to crawl in straight line only.
6- How can you forget parrots and cook.. Repeating same thing again and again. Yes, it's good. one should remember and learn.. But Hey! even parrots in jungle or city, doesn't do that. It's us.
7 - Is there any other animal left. we can even go to small insects and creature like ant too. Work, work hard, day & night, in discipline, in line. gather, gather as much as you can. I don't know, I haven't studied ant (she doesn't allow to observe and visit her house!) when they eat. what all sorts of collection we do. Isn't we have created such system. worker, ministers and queen. Our schools very well helps in that process.
8 - in other animal.. we are monkey only. so no point taking them again. they are already been treated a lot. And you see them treating back to us at few places.
9 - They tell us to be like tortoise sometime, but moment you are slow. they tell you be like a hare. But no one comes and tell Be the way you are.
10 - Even we are schooled to be a social animal. expectation is to be a human. How is that possible? I am wondering which animal you can make seat for long hours and feed them all sorts of information. 








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Saturday, October 27, 2018

can you play, a safe game?

Mega game, called life
have you seen it? 
have you lived it? 
have you played it?
Ohh, wait... wait...

let me first find out
who I am? in this
Mega game called life.
I am a player or creator or spectator?
I am an umpire or groundsman or commentator?
Where i see myself?
all, I assume,
shall we resume?

Wait..

No!

Pause! can this be applied to
Mega game called life.
Just go on, or gone!
Really, not sure! 
are there only to options
go on or gone?
It seems so, but... but..

lets probe from somewhere else,
On what ground this game being played?
Is it a space or something else?
game so inclusive, can't see
on so many different grounds,
is it just one game with one innings or many
is it just one game or many games within a games
is it just one game at many grounds, 
where shall i found?
i said,
lets probe from somewhere else,
you always hit a wall
why you always search a fault?
every time you fall.
To make a wells,
you need to dig up well.

Fine, fine, shall we continue to play?
Where to begin but...
I don't see any start or end of it?
Ohh, Isn't you have end in your mind?
What are you saying? 
shall we not play with words and mind!
Ok. 
observe, isn't you always want to win.
a clear end in your mind.
which you always want to find.
whether you make sin, 
or shine.
it's hard to take rest
but one feel to be relax.
flex your arm
not always to follow
what you love
but just to do.

Just go on,
following the laws and rule,
following the foot steps
all the others do
you coward!
'cause your arm can be
flexed by others too.
so you flex your arm
play the game
try to win the race
kill the one
just become rest of one.
never rest
in fear of arrest
or is it other way round
arrested in rules of game
never you rest.
you change the rule,
do you even know the rule?
you change the rule, 
comfort and go on win.
relax, what's lacking in you?
fake and make believe
all goes on, in
Mega game called life.

is I am writing and
you are reading
to find what this game is all about?
to find some solutions of trivial problem of
Mega game called life.

I feel, let's get back to work,
just observe with openness 
ask, aspire to receive.
But you want 
you want everything predictable
you want to play safe
that's the reason you always get caught
Goal! never made, and wicket always fall.

Do you really like predictable games?
If answer is in big No.
how you enjoy and look always 
for and from predictable answers
predictable sources
dictator of its own kind.
if you can't find
go to those story teller
predictions! Predictions!
Pre and post
what you do all the time
post-mortem.

Let game go on
anyways, gone!

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How this piece came up?
So, around noon time came across a status on FB.
Where one of the thought which I used to share and tell a lot were written and explain in more rightful words. 'Everyone is a philosopher.'
Search began to find the article, around that. first i had a felling that i had wrote around it and posted here on blog. after few failures and reconfirming, I haven't. I looked up into old desktop. I found the file, but only with title and few link.
that's where I found another file and something more interesting came up. presenting only last line of it.

...But you see, we don't want to invite life, we want to play a safe game; and those who play a safe game die very safely. 

This words of J. Krishnamurti  resonated so well, at the current state of being. specially, when you are unemployed or self occupied in work. trying to find out how to live a life. 

So, words and images floated around. As usual, i tried to break the words to find the meaning. 
Like many other time, letters were separated. playing crossword. G - A - M - E... little rearrangement and it becomes M-E-G-A.
Thus,
Mega game called life.
and rest kept on flowing, some in making.

As i wrote down this prose, i again kept on asking google for its meaning. of different words.

and found a phrase... so here it goes.

Mega game called life,
hiding a gem called life.

so how this game of hide & seek going?

isn't this a safe game, 
we want to play.
we want to hide all that's ours and 
still keep on seeking, what's all out there.
what you seek, keeps on hiding from you. 
and you on hunt, 
hiding few things more and 
seeking few things less.
In the movement of moments
let change be new rule.
discover all hidden and show them out
what you seek, any way you going to get.

-vaibhav
26-10-2018

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27-10-2018
again found a beautiful song, depicting the words in more musical and lyrical form.
game called life

Friday, October 26, 2018

आधा अधूरा....

आधा अधूरा जिया हूं।
धीरे धीरे मर रहा हूं,
अधरों पे तेरा नाम, ओ राधे।

धीरे धीरे मर रहा हूं,
इस आश में,
तू आके मुझे घेरे
ना जाने दे कहीं
अपने दिल मे रखले।

अब चाँद नहीं भाता,
नाही उतना लुभाता।
पूर्णिमा के रात,
अपना अधूरापन
यह पागलपन
इन बंध दीवारों के संग बांटता।

अधूरा अधूरा जी रहा
किन्ही टुकड़ो में बटा
ना था तुझे पता?

नहीं जीना ऐसे आधा आधा
हाथ थाम लेना
हृदय थम जाये इससे पहले।
महल नही, तेरी मौजूदगी चाहिए
अब रुक मत जाना,
पहेलियां, हवेलियों के चक्कर में।
आधा आधा बन बहुत घूम लिया तु,
वन जाने से पहले,
वान उतर जाने से पहले
तू आजा ना
अधरोपे अधर लगाके नाम पूरा कर जाना।

आधा आधा कब तक जियूँ?
याद कर कर, जिंदा कब तक राखु?
धाम तेरा टूटा जरूर है,
पूरा टूट जाये, प्राण छूट जाए,
वो आखरी घड़ी मत आना।
आना है तो अब आ,
थोड़ा सा शैशव, थोड़ा सा यौवन
तुझ पर में दे दु।

आधा आधा जी रहा
राह तेरी देख रहा।
बाद नही आज
बाह पकड़ गिरिराज
कही में और नीचे ना घिर जाऊ,
यह आधा अंत
नहीं चाहिए अब कोई संत
जब अधूरा बन जिया सिर्फ तेरे लिये ओ अनंत।

आधा अधूरा....
अधूरे सब
अधर धर....
शरण तेरी चरण
करण धर



Thursday, October 25, 2018

I am missing something, right?

looking for a light....
Its a lovely night
but I am missing something, right?
I still don't have that might
to hold you tight
O, my Light!

Still trying to sight
this seems an endless fight
and I don't like rite
to take a flight
and be in illusion to rewrite.

now I will face you in daylight
to get some delight
yet, all this while
like a lonely kite
I am missing something, right???

24/10/2016

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Light is around me
Light is within me
I can feel it sometime
whenever you came and kissed
whenever I bowed down in adoration.
O Light!
why you are missed so much
we are mixed in so much
impure  obscure
this space and time,
are they passing by
or we are passer by 
to Light, eternal.

Nothing makes sense
in dark dreadful paint
words all around
like a wall all around
world seen in wall mirror.
O Light! 
can you break
this heavy lid of ignorance
living in and on inertial
raging out to show
dies down not slow
in a flash
you appear, O Light
crossing mesh
glancing mesh
Come, 
O Light.
So I don't
So I do, and just be

I am missing something, right?

24/10/2018 
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25/10/2018
Picture credit:
A very simple article, a blog from hawai`i https://kauilapele.wordpress.com/2012/10/21/hold-the-light-and-pass-the-ice-cream/ 

Optics of Life

The shadow puppet show of life, My lord watches through Million pin-hole camera. Where is lord supreme, I don't know. What I feel is all...