સાગર સમીપે - ૨

બધું પામી લેવાની હોડ છે.
કોરાણે મૂકી માલિકને
કોરા રહી, ભીના થવાની કોડ છે.
એમ કેવી રીતે બને?
જીવન કેમ કરી ખીલે?
આપ્યા પહેલાં,
શું મળશે,
આ ગણવાની, ટેવ છે.
આ તે કાંઈ રીત છે?

- વૈભવ
૨૦-૦૧-૨૦૧૯, પુદુચેરી

Dot am I?

Sometimes I feel
That am I,
A water drop
A dot of the ocean
Connected in real,
unreal, virtual dots around.
Who knows?

When I see,
Come out of
False identification
As a Dot, as a drop...
What do I find.
There is no I
Not am I a Dot
Not even a drop
Nor a water
Or called an ocean

Then,
who am I?
Dot, drop, ocean, water, H2O or....
How about just being a part of Nature, Universe? Or simply called manifested nature

As thought travels
Bigger deeper questions emerge
What's there which seeks identity?
Why it seeks so? Does it have such a need?

Shhhhhhh

Silence felt
Down

A knock
And
Again a question

Who are you?

Pause to open

Pause if time has not come yet,
Build the capacity and
Trust... signal will come, gate will be open
to march on...

Pushing doesn't work
as forces always look for balance,
Harmony
Push brings Pulls too
Be Wise
Pause and don't go for a pushing yourself harder...

(.... New part)

Can you remain Open
Without pushing
Without pulling
Is it possible to be just open*
Keep on doing

Take a Pause,
Look at the sky
Look at the earth
How they have been doing
From millennial

Pause
Trust
Open
Receive

- vaibhav

(First part written on 2nd Feb 2017, based upon feeling brought after reading a small passage. A passage attached with angel of the month shared by findhorn foundation. Rest on 2feb 2019.)

* Variation 14/02/2019
When I was close?
Is there something
Which opens up and close down?
Let there be no room
No where to roam
Not even to zoom
Just
Be.

line and curve in stories of life

"There is a meaning in each line and curve."

- Sri Aurobindo, Savitri, P.460

Today, February First marks six month being out of Job. Last six month spent in Exploring world through various lenses and finding a life.

31^st July 2018 was a last day in The Polymath School. Farewell has been a touchy thing. Specially when you have deep rooted connections. To organize simple task of putting cake and begin celebration, no one was coming forward and passing games were on. At the end, one has to stand and order, get oneself doing few part.

There are and will remain many stories around sudden move of mine. Leaving a established job, work, students, friends and many more. Especially when you been to USA tour for school purpose just a month back. Let all versions of stories remain with their respective speakers and listener. What I want to share today are two things – first and foremost questions and few pointers which lead to Resignation and early exit. Secondly, answering another question. What I am up to, now?

Why?

 It's been six months and many people still ask this questions. My answers are various stories, different each time either with all facts or few facts & rest. Sharing this also give me sense of clarity and way to share curent and next move. 

Questions and Pointer

1.      Are you under influence?

2.      What do you want to do?

3.      You say, I will do it in 2020 or from 2022 onwards. Why not now? Go for that Now.

4.      Going back to the root [words are altered here and put in more positive tone.  J ]

5.      Watching Marathi Movie, ‘Bucket-List’ (Madhuri Dixit’s first Marathi movie) [final seal on resignation letter, came after watching it.]

We are always under the influence of various forces of Nature. It is a Nature - human, animal, earth and others which acts in and through us most of time. Very few have a control, rest of us are always under some influence.  

-         What is meant by ‘sincere’?

-         Sincerity means to accept the Divine Influence only and not that of lower forces. – Sri Aurobindo (CWSA-29)

In simple terms I found that we are either influenced by Fear, Love and in between them.

Last six month went behind experimenting and finding what one wants. What are the things which affects and influence this being.

And what I wanted to start or do and live from 2022, when I will reach age of 35. I will be consecrating at the feet of The Master on his 150^th Birth anniversary. I intend to start and try to live from now onwards.

So, what is that... second part of sharing thus begins. Still all is in its very primitive stage. What I am sharing is few basic where about and work.

1.     Pause to the work of ‘School of Universal Life’ (S.O.U.L.) may be for a whole year. It is a pause till emergence of better program and formation of few things.

2.     Being Part of community living. Lovingly called Anahad – beyond limits. Here its location details, for those who are inquisitive to know more about what we are doing and other things please mail on jiyomatiry@gmail.com or call.

3.     Few project work in Mumbai as well support to few individual & organization will go on for a year or two.

But most importantly a base for all above is living a life. Life as one should – connected with Self, with nature and living from within. Goal is a transition from Teacher-Facilitator to Aacharya.

At the end of six months, here I am.

Filled with stories of past, its various versions heard and unheard.  With full of possibility in present and future to draw lines and curve, by connecting dots, weaving yet another stories. Looking back each line and curve holds a deeper meaning, moving somewhere. Now what is require is to see next connecting dot and next connecting dot and others are in direction of progress or not?

Eti Shubham

[Ref: http://sasp.collaboration.org/individual.html ]

Puducherry Diary - Part Y

Continuing the mathematical derivations and expiation of life story.

In response to previous post on unknown X. A word pi and constant came up.

We somewhere know that this unknown is actually a constant, just like π - Pi. 

Whether you are far from the centre of existence or near. Value of π remains the same. So does Grace of Divine, Presence remains the same. It's another matter whether how much we are open and receive it. To speak in terms of duality.

Coming back to part Y.

Many times while solving mathematical equations we need to find Y. Finding Y leads you to X. And sometime it can be reverse too. 

On last two days of trip there was constant prayer where wanted to make Y and put X and Y into a bracket. 

This Y can be a place, words, person through or their one find that Unknown. We can label them with temple, mosque, church, scripture, and so on...

What strongly came to me is making heart a Y. Temple in where Unknown can dwell. The life becomes the bracket in which X and Y can be found through action, speech and thought.

Lips in sync with mind, sang a beautiful gujarati poem. Which in translation means..Let me make this life such that even god would like to stay. (પ્રભુને રહેવાનું મન થાય એવું જીવન બનાવું મારુ.)

This prayer, aspiration remains on, in dualistic mode of seeing. When you have two equations in life , one of your and other your creation of god.

Coming back to single equation, non-dualistic mode. I saw a circle and equation of circle. Where pi, constant is always there. Centre of self it begins and replaced by Self. Yet, not satisfied , moving away from the boundaries.centre dissolves into infinite... Not a hyperbolic...

Seeing all this movement, thoughts and dropping them off.

Journey continues by being present and knowing X and Y being there... That which gives ones a momentum to move on, that which tells the position. In this relative world, finite parts... 

રિબાવતી બારી, ઓ બાવરી

આ બારી, રિબાવે મને!
શા ને હજી ત્યાં શોભે?
ખુલ્લી હતી જ્યાં સુધી,
ત્યાંથી લગાવી છલાંગો
મુક્ત ગગનમાં,
પક્ષી સંગ વિહરવા.
પણ હવે વિરહના દિવસો છે,
વીરને કેમ કરી શોભે!

ઠેર ઠેર લાગી છે જાળીઓ,
કારણ દે,
બહાર અંદરના આવી જાય
પણ અંદરની બહારનું શું?
આ બારી, રિબાવે મને!
શા ને હજી ત્યાં શોભે?
બીજાના જીવનમાં ડોકિયું
આતે કોઈ સભ્યને શોભે
પડદાઓ પાડી રાખો ને રખાવો.
શિખામણ મળે છૂટમાં
પારદર્શકતા રાખો,
આ મૂર્ખામી કેમ કરી થોભે.

વૈભવ
૩૦-૦૧-૨૦૧૯

સાગર સમીપે - ૧

સાગર સમા વિશાળ,
મારા પ્રેમાળ હૃદયને.
ભરતી-ઓટના માપે
આંકતી ના
માપતી ના
એજ મારા ધબકાર
એજ મારી પ્રીત
મિત, એ ગીત,
નીત નવીન સરગમ
સદા ઉછળતો પ્રેમ.

- વૈભવ
૨૦-૦૧-૨૦૧૯, પુદુચેરી