Hold

At different mode and mould
There are different hold.

When I was a baby someone's hold me, take care of me. I too wanted to hold each and everything.

 

When I am young, I want to hold. Only what I love the most. In rare case those which I want to give a blow or throw them away afar

When I will be old, I want some one again to hold. A support to walk and talk, to reach a final destination. 

When I came I wanted to hold everything...

From my mother's arm to her love and compassion.
From my father's palm to his patience and power.
From my teachers writing to wisdom and warmth.

But
When I will go away from this world, I can't hold anything along with me. Eventhough you will hold some memory, some belonging... How long?

In between there were so many things I have to hold and so many thing to give from what I held.

What I am holding?
Is I am holding body?
Is I am holding thoughts?
Is I am holding my anger?
Is I am holding my emotions?
Is I am holding views?
Is I am holding image of you and world?
Is I am holding I in itself?

No analogy is perfect...

Whether I say

Just flow on
Or
Hold the truth.

Wise one knows

When to hold and when to let it go?
What to hold and what to let it go?
Why to hold and why to let it go?
How to hold and how to let it go?
Where to hold and where to let it go?
How much to hold and how much to let it go?

And finally asks

Who is holding?
Who is letting go?
Who am I?

May the wise in you who holds the secrets. Answers all your questions which you are holding in and entering into this new year. It happens only when  you yourself will not held it back to go and ask.
In order to hold the supreme, don't hold back anything. 

As I am writing this, a word comes 'holder' leading to another word 'householder'.

True,
Householder knows what to hold and what not? Why? How? When? Where?

Nature knows, body knows, everyone knows.

(I have jumped and moved thrice on this topic and here come another one)

Can you hold river?
Can you hold air?
Can you hold space?

Just halt for a moment.

Just have a breath and than let it go.

It's a fine art my friend.
It's science, it's art my friend.

What?When?Why?Where?Who?How and how much? To hold and let it go.

I hold a deep respect and gratitude to many souls and I give it out... some who has held name and are living, some who haven't hold any name or not holding a body.

May in the year 2018 we learn this science and art of holding and giving.

Eti shubham. 

[ Hold is a noun, which i came to know now.]

When 2017 die?

Some lines, random... Towards end... Might not make sense.. as I am not writing to make a patter , a sense to understand.

When you are near there is no fear.
It's your dearness which creates fear.

From ear or from err
I get fear.
It like looking from rear mirror
Things are closer than they appear.
Who gets disappear

I fear on my rhyme and poem
Does that make any sense
Difference in sensing
Makes me at either ease or fear
That's a constant message I am sending
Past to future

Love is one.
Fear is dual, that's why it broads very near.

Zero is one, first
You add, subtract, multiply or divide you know what you going to get.

But not with
One.. as it comes second.
It can sense
Dual power
High low
Good bad
Happy sad

Wait a minute!
Have you waited?
Didn't I told to wait?
So it's like this I don't do what I sense or been told
Reason sometimes are lamb and too cold.
Lets have a hot tea and end fear of all toxin passed so far.

If you still have some fear, call them very near.
Stood in front face to face , don't show your ass.
That's the only way to ace the fear.
Love is one.

जिंदगी का प्रेम

तू मुझे चाहती है।
तू मुझसे नही चाहती।
इसीलिए ए जिंदगी तू आती हे
चुप के,
चुप के से चली जाती।

मन मेरा करता हे,
तुझे आगोश में लेने का।
पर यह भूत भविष्य के वेले
उनकी नजर से छुप के
तुझे कैसे पकड़ू।

तुझे देना है सब कुछ,
पर क्या दे?
वो यादें, कल्पना या सपने?

कहानी मेरी, श्याही तेरी
उम्मीद है प्रेम बहेगा गहेरा।

કોણે કહ્યું હું લખું છું?

કોણે કહ્યું હું લખું છું?
આ તો જ્યારે માંહ્યલો ખીલે
બાહ્યલો* લખી કાઢે.
તમે જોયું? તમે વાંચ્યું?
એજ કોરા અક્ષર અને અક્ષરના અર્થો કે
કોઈ ભીની સુવાસ,
કોઈ અણદીઠો સાદ.

આતો જ્યારે હું જાતને કોતરું,
થોડું શ્યાહી ને જોતરું.
આતો જ્યારે હું છેતરાવ
એની સામે શબ્દો કોતરાવ.
મારા ભાવિ ના હું ને ખબર હોવી જોઈએ,
ક્યાં ક્યાંથી કેવી અસર થવી જોઈએ.
પસાર, સંચાર, આચાર વિચાર
જે માટે પણ હોય, તમારા માટે છે કે નહીં?
કદાચ આતો બસ મન ના ચારા?

કોણે કહ્યું હું લખું છું?
આ તો જ્યારે માંહ્યલો ખીલે
બાહ્યલો* લખી કાઢે.

Acceptance

You can not accept others as they are,
until you accept yourself as you are.

All this expectation builds within.
excitement which builds less, destroys more.
That's one of my observation,
you are free to exclude them even.

I don't hold a right to expect you to be as i wish.
Why still i expect me to be as i wish? forget about what you wish!
Let's come out of this imposter.
Posters build by self and other,
so full of desire and many you don't like to desire.
Are they imposed? or you feel proud,
to say, i'm in pose!

But,
You are a flow
don't get freeze!
You can have a pause.
Still you are going to flow
Cause, you are free.
You are free to flow.
You are free to pause.
You are free to fly.
Even in your every cry,
pause a moment,
remember 'F' of Freedom, F of fun,
not to fry, but to fly.
Do not forget 'F' stands for freedom,
whenever you find yourself hit a low.
It's fine, sometime we loose a 'f',
go very low, but moment you find it or not.
keep your flow.
In those moment of LOW, FLOW,
Be an OWL.

Be an owl,
Watch darkness
in its eyes.
Till your midnight oil burns out.
You will be out, wait for light.
Take flight and not a fight.
That's where your freedom lies,
nothing tight or nothing to fright.
Be an owl,
watch darkness
in its eyes.

Accept the dark,
as you would love to embrace light.
Do you think and feel, you love to embrace a light?
I doubt  you now!
You have a fear.
fear of getting burn and engulf.
Consume by fire.
Really you like to embrace the light, be one with it.
Be a light.
Path to that passes through night.
I am telling you do not fight.
Accept black and white,
moment you do.
moment you do completely,
Oh! sincerely,
That's where your silver lining lie.
 Still keep flowing
beyond this certain and uncertain,
a golden one awaits you.
Even if you get a glimpse,
gulp down your excitement and achievement.
Gear up for larger flight.
Accept it,
As you are master and have a visa
It's not about card or credit debit
neither of passport to haven.
Just accept it,
who you are,
those strips of black and white
some time awake, some time asleep
may be a time and beyond the time.
who never knows, whats complete.
Accept it,
all known and unknown,
whether its ignorance or enlightenment.
Accept! Accept! Accept!

હૂં નથી? કે, હું છું?

હૂં નથી? કે, હું છું?

હૂં નથી? કે, હું છું?
હું કોણ છું? કે, હું કોણ નથી?

નથી બાકસ કે નથી સળી,
કે નથી બનવું આ બાકસ કે સળી.
નથી કરતો જાણી જોઈને કોઈની સળી!
તે છતાં સળગવું ને સળગાવવું,
દાઝવું, ન દાઝવું ઍ મન પર, તમારા પર છોડ્યું!
મારે હજી સળગવું, ઘણું બધું બોલવું,
શાંત રહ્યો ને આ શબ્દોના સમંદર ઉમટ્યા.

ખાલી નથી કે નથી ભરેલો?
આવા પ્રશ્નો પૂછીને નથી થાકેલો.
ટે'મ નથી હું, કે મને ટે'મ નથી;
કઈંક ભરવાનો, કે ખાલી કરવાનો!
નથી કોઈ આવી કોશિશ
કઈંક ભરવાની, કે ખાલી કરવાની!
છતાં શાને છે આ ગડમથલ?
બધું જ તો છે સમતલ,
સમ મન, સમ તન.

પકડ્યું નથી કે નથી પકડાયો,
વૈભવ છે આ બધે વેરાયો.

-

વૈભવ ( વિધ્યુત વેગ)
19-11-2017

નોંધ:
ટે'મ = સમય અને તેમ બંને રીતે પ્રયોગ
ભાષા, વ્યાકરણની ભૂલો માફ કરજો!

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દુવા ની દવા ની જરૂરત પડે,
આ કા કા કા કરનારા
કાવા-દવા, તીખા કલ્શોરે
મારગ નહી, માત્ર રગડવાનુ
અથડાતા આ મૌજા ઓ ની
પરપોટા ફૂટે, કોણ કોને ખૂટે?
કોણ કોને લૂંટે?
ઍજ વાતને સર્વે રાગ મહી ઘૂંટે
ચૂંટે કોણ? છૂટે કોણ?
રાગ અનુરાગની લીટી
ઉંટે બેસી ઓળન્ગે કોણ?
ચૂમે છે, મસ્તીમાં ઝૂમે
કોણ?
પ્રેમ હતો નહી કે મને પ્રેમ, તને પ્રેમ;
હૂ પ્રેમ, તૂ પ્રેમ કે જે છે તે બસ
પ્રેમ પ્રેમ પ્રેમ
 

Disrobe images

 

An open transparent mirror i am.
You can't pass through me.
Yet we can be one and same.
It doesn't mean to be naked,
What is meant is you are that.
You are not your clothes.
Thousand images which you wear.
Some you created or choose to put on and
Some gifted by others.
Don't define yourself
From what cloth you wear.
 

Disrobe them!
You are still far on surface skin.
Don't scan and compare
Rather serve with compassion
As there is nothing to wear and nothing fear.

-
Medium vaibhav, from some unknown force, with mixture of mystic, wisdom, lust, power, intelligentie and unknown.

Happy wishes to ___________ ? for __________?

Namaste, I am writing after a long time. As first thought came and took shape in Gujarati. While writing them down in diary, it shifted to English. I went to with this new mode. I didn't tried or pushed mind to change language or even translate them from one to another. Just because more number of people can read, I have typed Gujarati portion in Devanagari script. I am sorry, if this attempt hurts anyone in any form. Also not taken that great care in its spelling and punctuation. I am not full time writer nor have time to redraft and revise for third time.

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आजे सवार थी 'शुभ दशेरा' 'हॅपी दशहरा' विजया दशमी ना संदेशा आवी रहया छे. whatsapp  आने facebook, social media  पर.
आजे खाली नही, वारे त्यावहारे, सर्व समये आवा शुभेच्छा वाला संदेशा आवे छे. पण आटली बधि शुभेच्छा जो आपनने मलति होय तो पछि... ?
बहु प्रश्न उभा थाय छे. विचारो आवे छे.

  

आखु गाम शुभेच्छा आपे एटले आपने आपवा बेसिए? मोटे भागे copy-paste or forward  करता रहिये. ज़रा थोबो, जुवो - how much head, heard & hand went into it? who had maximum percentage - head or heart or hand, behind this action? शुभेच्छा ना ढगला. आ शुभेच्छा ना वहेण, तरवु कई रीते?

दशहरा ए संस्कृत शब्द छे? ए प्रश्ननो उत्तर तो कोई पंडित आपे.
अने बीजा सवालोना जवाब तो आपडे आपड़ि जात पासेथिज मांगवा रहया.

मारी अंदर शुभेच्छा आपवा थनघाट थय रह्यो हतो. आध्यात्मिक, धार्मिक,  life management थी तर्बतोर संदेशा हता सामे. चयन कठिन हतु.

I was looking for something more, original. Never to say original is one which comes from within.
Than this message 'Dasshera is a Sanskrit term', had taken a control over mind. suddenly a pressure was built over head. Three - four thought, question came in a flash and left. I tried and tied them back here.
1- Spirituality, festivity is not an escape.
2- What's so special Ram did to kill Ravana? Did He really killed 10headed person or something else?
3- Exile from real life, how long?

 After some time they took more concrete form and shape.
1st point is very personal. Everyone has freedom to figure out what does that statement means? Where does it resonates?
Let's look at second one.
I am sure many of us have received message about removal of 10 bad qualities on this auspicious day. Real meaning of Dusshera and so on.

That's wonderful! Once upon a time, i too liked that message.
Yet, today that wasn't the case. I wanted to go little deeper.
Very first thing came up was 'Hit on Bally.'

"Hit on Bally".

Words echoed in my ear.
This is what I was looking for, a message.

Ram also first went behind beheading head of Ravana. Every time He targeted an arrow to his head and Beheaded him. Next instant another head used to come up. Again and again, same gets repeated. Until a Wise man like Vibhishan comes and tells Lord Ram, 'Hit on the bally'.
Isn't that very similar to our approaches to solve problems. We go behind those symptoms, those people (in whom we see those obscure mistakes, crime; which might be just few percent of whole person and rest might be really good.) We overlook. No, we never take a pain, struggle to find the root cause. Something like what Buddha did, to take up a challenge of finding the root cause.
We always go behind those tip of iceberg and main chunk remain underneath as it is. We enjoy cutting those heads. We feel we got the Justice and so on. World remains the same.

WOW! a lot to learn from here. I don't feel explaining anything over here. I know everyone is wise enough to look back and reflect. Or not that much than at least to ask questions.
Let me tell you something more in a connection. Above story as you know from Ramayana is one of the story behind celebration of Dusshera. Another one is from Mahabharata. A day when Pandava returns from the exile, takes their weapons which they had hid it in/on apta tree.
Isn't this time to return from our slumber exile in sleep. To take up our weapons (read tools) to find the root cause and swipe them away.

Connect this stories. You might find more.

I deeply wish now.
A fire been lit in each & everyone of us. A fire which help us & guide us to find root cause and remove it. May everyone find the right tool to look within and practice in real life (not of exile or of show off).

Eti Shubham

Except, Expect, Accept

Expect, Accept and except were words used to confuse me a lot. I still fumble upon them... right now not by fumbling.. I found a strange connection between them..
when equation will be expect=0% ; accept = 100%

Expectations had almost crushed me...
Experiences has created me and kept me alive...
Now, I am getting ready to clear off expectation. Its mindless speculations and demands, torturing mind and shading heart.

Expectations had almost killed me
echoes of Her word, saved this life...
On the path of ...,
endanger of expectation are subtle.

I Thank Lord for saving me,
With all humble gratitude,
I bow down and aspire for expectation free life.
As this words comes out...
writer within is tickling, from a some time.
I am just asking him patiently.. "Do you have any expectations?"

દિલ ભરાઈ આવ્યુ છે

આકાંક્ષા ને અભરાઇ ઍ મૂકી દે
આ નભની રાહ મૂકી દે
ઍક કહે છે ડૂબી જા
બીજો કહે છે તરી લે
ત્રીજો ચાહે છ્બ-છબિયા
ને ચૌથા ની વાતાજ શુ
આમને આમ
બધા ગણિત બગાડે છે

જે શુન્ય છે ઍજ ગણિત માંડે
બીજા ઍક બીજાને ભાંડે
હવે નથી રહેવું, સહેવું, કહેવું
પણ કરવું છે.
શું?
ઈ ખબર હોત તો કરતો ના હોત
દિલ ને ભરાઈ જવાનો અવકાશ ના હોત
હવે શૂન્યા અવકાશમાં ...
સંદેશથી ઉભરાયેલા આકાશમાં
અંદેશા નથી મળતા પ્રકાશના
રૂદનનું ધન ખરચતા
ગહેરાય ને સરજતા
આ શૂન્ય અવકાશમાં
દિલ ભરાઈ આવ્યુ છે

Flower of Love

My heart, flower of love
Blossoms in spring of peace.
Soft and sweet, colorful petals I have
Stronger I, born from within
With grace of light, I grow upward
Generous, my hidden nature
In secrecy spread fragrance of bliss.


 year: 2011
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Thank you mirambika. For allowing flower of love to blossom.

With you I found meaning of expression through languages and art and other forms.
How important it is to express? ultimately whole of this world and its working is the projection, expression.

Above poem were written during one of its kind learning session at mirambika. Where we [teacher trainnes] were given five words and asked to make a prose out of it. Words given to us were: Love, Peace, Grace, Generous, Nature. 



 

7 years ago: jivan jal ki dhara

jivan jal ki dhara

jivan jal ki dhara,
kabhi na ruke
kabhi na thame
bas baheti chale

muskilo ko par kar,
avradho ko chir kar,
kabhi tute kabhi tode,
jivan jal ki dhara.

sukh me madhur sangeet,
dukh me khara paani,
man chahe saaje dhalti,
jivan jal ki dhara.

Question is Queen

From past few years I used to crack one PJ [Pakau/poor jock] on question.

Where does the tail [पूंछ] of monkey [our ancestor, as you know!] has disappear and reappear somewhere in us [human, really!] ?

In response to question, answer used to be tail has become पूछ. पूछ of पूछताछ, Man does more inquiry now. The inquisitiveness which we see even in monkeys and other animals, has grown to such a extent in humans that tail(पूंछ) has disappeared physically and asking/inquiring (पूछना) has become major tool.

 Asking is a great art. Right question can lead us to right solution. you might have heard this many times. 
Question contains the answers. 
If you have a question that means answer is also there. 
and many more...

But I think question is Queen. 

Because both starts with Q and more than that.

Right question can lead you to best answers and makes you a King.
If genuine questioned been asked and relentlessly pursue for the answer. Many learning leading to entitlement and enlightenment can be achieved.

This queen come with its own price and has its own defect too.

Prices:
1 - Framing of questions, uses of right word in it is priceless to make question queen.
2 - Ask question only when you are really seeking for an answer.  
3 -  Remember question is queen, not a jack. [Jack questions are like - tell me what shall I do, now? Do you know how to do that? I will do exactly like that.]

Defect

If question been taken in mind and heart, solution were seek with rigour than most likely answer will come too. Mostly we need to follow and do as direct by answer, The King. At those moment if we behave like queen with attitude [or remain with question]. You can guess what we loose.


Do you have a queen?

PS: here word queen & king are used as behaviour and relationship ways, not from gender perspective.  

Bout of Doubts

Bout of Doubts

When in self-doubt

One is in a big bout, against

self v/s self,

decision v/s decision,

thought v/s thought,

and so on.

There are many tout and touts,

for a ring to brought home again.

There is some time,

Actually, most of the time,

There is no meaning to stretch

further, it doesn't take us far

rather brings us down. 

Whenever in a self-doubt

first just bow-down

to universe and wisdom.

Take a deep breathe

Restore your trust on 

the wisdom.

"All is done for good and

will be for good."

Nothing less and more than good.

Are you reading for another

bout

with a 

doubt.

- Vaibhav , Platform No. 6/7, Vasai Road - 9:30Am, Wednesday, 08/02/2017